Wednesday, April 27, 2005
will you shut up or not
what do you mean no
yes or no when i ask you just answer the question
you want to spoil everything is that it
don't talk back just listen
when i talk i want you to listen
just listen
nobody asked for your opinion
shut up
what do you mean what
don't talk to me that way
you think you are so big
keep quiet
sit still
put your feet down
don't touch that
stop crying
you don't know anything
you cannot do it i know
you will never make it
i don't want to see anymore tears
what are you crying about
emotions won't get you anywhere
you have to do it this way
that is a very stupid thing to do
what kind of an answer is that
shit
don't compare with others
i don't want such mediocracy
such standards cannot be accepted
you let her what
don't think you know everything
just a kid and you want to talk so much
some people just don't have brains
no way
look at me when i'm talking to you
i knew it
see, i always know better
don't end up like me
you think everybody's parents can be like me
i'm smart
stupid people are like that
you should aim to be a ceo
i think you better stop all these extra activities
come home now
are you crazy
don't be stupid
i can do it you can't
i expect my children to be independent
just because i do it doesn't mean you can
will you shut up
no you can't
*****
just listen to yourself.
Ali
1:18 AM
Alice breathes again..
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Monday, April 25, 2005
psalms 118:17-18
Ali
12:22 AM
Alice breathes again..
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Saturday, April 23, 2005
In Loving Memory of Ally
Little Girl
She was such a joy as a little furball
Always curious, always brave
And always, always, eager
Now she lies on her side
Howling and moaning
And raising her hind
My dear kitty, my sweet Ally
Has, seemingly overnight
Experienced the coming of age
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Let us together grieve the loss of youth and innocence
Of childhood and trust
They were taken in the night
Because nothing lasts forever
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Ally the little girl is no more
She is now
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Catwoman
Ali
11:54 AM
Alice breathes again..
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Friday, April 22, 2005
I've come to realise, that shopping is not necessarily more fun when u have money to spend. Because it is inate that you want the best deal. Even when u aren't shopping for yourself.
This holiday, ive been going mad with helping a certain VERY irresponsible someone decorate his ENTIRE house. Tsk tsk.. we are very concerned!!
But i've also come to see it as a mini project and a way of honing my artistic skills. I mean it is not everyday you are given a whole space for you to mess around with for free! I can't wait for it to be complete! and then, after that i have MY OWN space to work with!
*****
This June, i realise, will be one of the most eventful Junes ever.
1) i will be walking down the aisle in a pretty pretty princessy gown beaming my head off because it will NOT be me getting enslaved in the clutches of holy matrimony
2) i will be rolling down the snow mountains sans parental objection. I will be frolicking in the snow and throwing snowballs in the air. Gasp! I will be touching snow for the first time in my life!! I think i will make a snow angel first.
3) i will be displaying my first art piece ever in my whole entire life on somebody else's wall.
4) i will be having my own own own room with a queen size bed and a couch and purple walls.
5) i will be having my own roof top world to dream and see the stars and sleep and have secret late night rendevous.
6) i will be earning moolah, full time moolah.
Time is what you make of it. You can spend it being focused on a single person, driving all your emotions and energy to think of the person and/or caring for the person and going practically insane over that person..
or you can get a life.
If possible, you can do both. But, it takes wisdom for that.
Ali
11:48 PM
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Yay i've created a quiz! Go and try, it's in the links part ---->
And word of caution, my 2 friends who have known me since pri sch both,
BOTH FAILED!!!!
Horrors! INCREDULOUS!!
haha chill man, just a time killer.
peace
Ali
1:43 AM
Alice breathes again..
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
And so it is, just like she said it would be..
no?
Yes...
sigh
gasp
choke
sob..
wail..
SHRIEK!
grovel..
sniffle
mumble
shrug
oh well
book?
read.
I have no friends. In one week i lost two.
I am the best.
Ali
1:13 AM
Alice breathes again..
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
The season of testing has begun
The lion is on the prowl
... to steal... to kill
and to destroy
Time to put on the armor.
Lord you are always here with me
There is no changing God with thee
You are the same yesterday
And today and forever more
Here on your promises i stand
You hold my future in your hand
My Solid Rock, Almighty God
I worship you..
Pray for me?
Ali
11:34 PM
Alice breathes again..
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
This long overdue entry is dedicated to my friend Kelvin.
He is a secretly brilliant photographer which I discovered!
If any of you are interested in Kelvin and of course, his photography, please contact him at smurf_coke@yahoo.com
Ali
9:37 PM
Alice breathes again..
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Look what I found in my mini oreos...
a really REALLY mini oreo! 
Ali
11:37 PM
Alice breathes again..
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Wow. I've thought about it and realised that today, i officially spoke face to face with a record of one human. My Mother. Save for a telephone conversation (and a very disturbing one at that) that took away my peaceful 966 ride home, i didn't speak to anyone else.
I went in late for the paper today, saw my proud index no. 1 seat taken up by some chinese unknown, and had to take dumb 24 instead. Humph. And i left the hall 1 1/2 hrs early.
And as a certain someone always says - "alicia, you always pull through la..."
Well ha ha ha, let's just say waking up at 10am today to cram in 10 topics of QM certainly paid off. I think i won't fail this term. My beloved brain and i are one. We know each other, we feel each other. It will never fail me!! And as i did the paper i couldn't help but think gleefully about the entire study break which i delightfully spent doing everything else except study.
Wheee!
Tertiary education rocks!!
Perhaps it is my subconscious that is fueling this antisocial behavior in me, because really, these days, humans are seriously irritating the intellect out of me.
You, you and YOU! I just want to Ah-duuu-Gan! all of you...!
Just get a life, get a hobby,
Line up your soldiers and she'll shoot them all down, Alicia rules the world... ROARRRRR!!!
So Please. Unless anybody has any stimulating discoveries about the universe to share with me, or some deep religious insights to debate over, spare me the torture of human interaction.
Ali
8:28 PM
Alice breathes again..
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Monday, April 11, 2005
when i was still a little girl
my daddy used to put me on his shoulders
and i would feel so happy and loved
whenever it rained
he would carry me with one arm
hold the umbrella with the next
and sing me the rain song, our song.
i miss him
*****
Charles marrying Camilia brought forth a divine message for me
Watching the beautiful blessing ceremony,
picturing my own someday,
I felt God whispering his comfort to me.
My will be done..
Despite marrying the wrong people
Despite raising kids to adults
Despite finding separate lives
They found each other in the end
God will only want to give you the best my dear friend
So often we hurry, changing God's plan, taking it as our own to arrange.
Fearing that the creator couldn't possibly know better
Well, he does. I know it now. And humbly accept my own shortcomings and stupidity.
As well as my failure to set a better example to those around me, especially you.
wait. wait. wait.
He has a suprise in store for you. And it will blow you away.
I can't stand to see you hurt and i cannot wait to give you a hug when we next meet, i know it is trying and i know that the temptation to be impatient is sometimes so strong.
But wait. Hold my hand and wait. Don't open the gift before the giver intends for you to receive it. In the meantime and beyond, you know we'll always have each other forever.. [DGLs]
*****
i miss my daddy so much.
i wish he'll come back.
Ali
11:59 PM
Alice breathes again..
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This is my Father's world
I rest me in the thought
And though the wrong seems oft so strong
God is the ruler yet...
Today i was liberated of years of misconception about the idea of forgiveness.
Forgiveness only involves one human - myself.
It is something granted, not earned.
It is given by grace, through grace.
Hence; an action on my part, willed by myself.
Between My Father and me.
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So stay out of it.
Ali
1:00 AM
Alice breathes again..
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Friday, April 08, 2005
Why do i always... ALWAYS get myself into such wierd-ass situations??!
I swear, i should come with a swatting stick!
Once more, the deed has to be done. Once more those blasted words have to be said.
"... Yes... the serious kind..."
aargh!
Thanks to all those who have patiently heard me out, and reasoned with me, and provided me with the appropriate gushes and nods and sympathetic "oh mannnn..."s.
They were much, much needed.
It is so much harder when it is close to the heart.. ;-d
*****
On a lighter note: Ladies! Please please please... i beseech thee....
Get your feet and nails done!!!
It is absolutely imperitive that you take the time out to go for a pedicure or a manicure or both!
Now i am the proud owner of pretty pretty feet and pretty pretty hands, dressed in shiny shiny colors and drenched in silky silky moisturiser... ahhh...
Random Msn: "OOI! Alicia Prescott! Exams next week you do this sort of things??!"
Me: "Aiyo miss... that is precisely why i need these sort of things right????"
Oh... and the leg spa thingy... is absolutely essential... after all that shopping ive been doing the past weeks! oooh come feel me up!
*****
Erm i know i sound abit kuku today. I am man.
Happiness mixed with wierdassness is not a good mix.
Preparing to go for the exams without touching a single text or note is not a good thing.
but... i do NOT give a damn... and i'm lovin' it!
Chant with me:
Holidays are comin'
Holidays are comin'
Holidays are comin'
tis' the season it's always the real thing...
[fade out] holiday's are comin.. holiday's are comin'.....
Yay!
Ali
11:26 PM
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
The moment after i posted the previous post, an email from a friend popped up. How timely and how reassuring.. It left me choked up. Can't explain, i have a thing about eagles..
May you be blessed as well.
Eagles are the most long-lived bird in the world.
By the time they reach 40 years old, their claws will start to age, losing their effectiveness and making it hard for them to catch preys.
The lifespan of an eagle is up to 70 years old. But in order to live this long, it must make the toughest decision at 40. At 40, its beak is too long and curvy that it reaches its chest. Its wings, full of long, thickened feathers, are too heavy for easy flying.
The eagle is left with 2 choices - do nothing and await its death or go through a painful period of transformation and renewal.
For 150 days, it first trains itself to fly beyond the high mountains, then build and live in its nest and cease all flying activities. It then begins to knock its beak against granite rocks till the beak is completely removed. When a new beak is grown, the eagle will use it to remove all its old claws and await quietly for new ones to be fully grown. When the new claws arefully grown, the eagle will use them to remove all its feathers, one by one. Five months later, when its new feathers are fully grown, it will soar in the sky again with renewed strength and is able to live for the next 30 years.
I am reminded of Isaiah 40:31 but they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. I used to wonder why the Lord would associate those who wait upon him with the eagle and not other birds like peacocks, chickens or turkeys. It is only when I read this that I know - God has intended that we should soar on wings like eagles, run and not be weary, walk and not faint.
I want... I want!
Ali
3:12 PM
Alice breathes again..
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and so it is.. just like she said it would be..
today i woke with the weight of the day upon my shoulders
test tomorrow
exams next week
report due
emails to reply
voids to fill
friends to comfort
lessons to prepare
promises to keep
ugh... but i didn't give a shit. I stayed stuck in bed, willing myself to drift off to another land.
I have no mood to blog. The thoughts that fill my mind this week can't seem to be put into words. So many times i have attempted to invite another into them, but failed miserably.
Last night i drank too much again.
And now i'm thinking - it is so easy to just give. To say "God, later dude..."
It is so easy it is scary.
People go through seasons. Don't tempt me for now.
I am weak.
I am jealous.
Cold, cold water... surrounds me
And i can't let go of your hand
Ali
2:51 PM
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
we were 12, now we are 21...
In a bid to make up for all those lost years, I've added a new Photo link - NAPS pictures.
Please save the pics to your comps in case we enter the 9 year-hiatus again and re-unite at the big 30.
so my post birthday girls, your pics are there!
Ali
11:49 AM
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Hello sleepover pics are in.
And I WILL get the crab pics and the Twins' 21st in as well very soon!
Ali
10:12 AM
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